*I*Confused

Ethnically Chinese, culturally Taiwanese-American 
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Respect

 

Michael Jackson is dead. Learn to have some fcking respect, people.

I can’t believe people like Peter King are posting youtube videos about how they think Michael Jackson is *still* a child molester.  He was not found guilty, by 12 out of 12 jurors.  What does that have to say for itself?  People are spouting shit out of their mouths without even knowing his story.  He had a tough life growing up.  People need to watch the interviews, yes even that horrible interview with that bastard Martin Bashir who used him and exploited him, and edited his interview to make him seem weird and pedophilic.  And people need to watch his rebuttal interview, where it shows how Martin Bashir, when he thought the cameras were off, completely contradicted his own comments.   The main point is how Michael answered those sensitive questions.  Can people not see how traumatized he is from his childhood? The man cried on TV after mentioning his father.  How can you people ignore this?

I am quite upset about his death because he suffered ridicule and judging from everyone for so long.  He had a tragic, tragic life growing up the way he did, and he was very psychologically traumatized by all that he went through. Can anyone blame him for being a little warped as an adult trying to get his childhood back? His father beat him up with iron pipes and leather belts and forced him to be a money generating machine ever since the age of 5. He wanted to just be a normal kid but couldn't and lived in constant fear of his father. Additionally, to teach him a lesson about leaving his windows open at night, his father dressed up in a scary mask and pretended to kidnap him, which lead to nightmares for years after that. How insane is it to experience that as a child?  How would you feel?

He was a shy kid, when people made fun of his large nose and acne he would go cry alone in his room. When his 1st girlfriend (Tatum O’Neal) wanted to have sex with him he was so scared he covered his face with his hands on the bed. Why can't people just see that he's a timid individual with a traumatized past? His father making fun of his appearance saying "You didn't get it from MY side of the family," lead to him changing his face when he got older. He even recalls at 40 when a fan looked at him and was disgusted by his acne during his teen years, which made him so sad and upset.  He takes things personally and beats himself up for it, it’s all because his father gave him a complex about his appearance when he was a child. 

Sure, he's a little disturbed and he tries to stay a kid to get back the childhood that he lost in a very unconventional manner. He's naive and too trusting, and people use that to their advantage to extort money out of him. All those lawsuits against him -- if those parents were really upset their child was molested wouldn't they want to see him behind bars instead of settling for money? If I was a parent with a traumatized kid the LAST thing I would want is to be paid off. What's the real motivation here? Additionally, those families that accused him kept changing their stories. First it was that Michael molested their child 5 times.  Then it was around 7 times. Then it was 2 times. Come on.  How can anyone believe this BS? If your child was molested you would forget how many times?
 
He was a very misunderstood individual who had a very strange life - and didn't have the parents to protect him from it. He knows how painful it is to not have love as a child which is why he wants to make sure many kids are happy, and he also wants to join them so he can make up in some way what he never got to experience as a child. That might be a messed up mentality to some but can everyone just put themselves in his shoes and try to imagine what it's like growing up the way he did, with an abusive parent, and in the spotlight where people constantly made fun of his appearance?

All those harsh comments in the media about people saying, "He's a pedophile! Who cares! He's dead!!" are from people who never bothered to put themselves in his shoes and just think for a moment about what he had to grow up with. He was not charged as a child molester, and the jury found him innocent.  He felt he was a brother to those children who slept over at his house. I've slept with my camp counselors in the same room, maybe the same bed when I wanted to. They were like older sisters to me.  Should they be considered molesters too?

People took advantage of his naivety and added more psychological damage to what was there.  All he had to offer was his great music and great entertainment, but people couldn’t see the good in him and wanted to see the worst, which was a total fabricated lie from money hungry, greedy opportunistic parents. I am sad for him, and what he had to go through.


Now that he’s passed, people are still giving him shit, which is totally uncalled for. He was a humanitarian that is in the Guiness Book of World records for how much he gave and how many songs he wrote about poverty. He was the first to get so many stars together for a song to raise awareness about poverty in Africa.  I can't believe people are still judging him. It makes me sad for the world, at how cruel these people are. We lost one of the last best entertainers out there. His family lost a brother, and his children lost a father. He's dead, people. I hope that when all these people die, people remember all the “ugly” things in their lives as well.  How un-respectful can you be.  How cold hearted and merciless is our society.  Really.

So imagine this.  You were abused as a child, you could never go to school, have a best friend, play softball games, go to the prom, or walk aimlessly in a crowd. Everywhere you went you were photographed or gossiped about.  You are lonely, and you just want to have friends, but people think you’re a freak. You made friends with some kids, even gave money to help out a few with cancer and they come back and sue you for being a child molester.  Then you trust a journalist to film a documentary to show the world the truth and he cuts and pastes it to make you sound like a criminal.   And your personality is one that takes things seriously, and you beat yourself up for it, and you have suffered the judgment and wrath of your father your entire life and now the whole world is against you.  How do you feel then?  Michael Jackson or not, any child who has endured this type of life style would not be completely normal.   You should be able to understand why you would want to go through plastic surgery to change your ridiculed appearance, and why you want to be around kids, because kids don’t judge you. They are accepting and just want to have fun and be around you.  You’re not a freak when you’re with them. If this person was anyone other than a man worth over a billion dollars – would people be as cruel then?  

I really didn’t expect to write so much about this but I feel our world is just so evil sometimes.  The evil energies of these people who keep going on and on and accusing others and fabricating nasty stories just because they are jealous of the attention really need to step back learn how to feel some sympathy. If we could all try to understand each other before making accusations the world would be a much better place.

Lastly, I just want to say that there is no one else that can replace him in the world.  The influence he had on everyone, globally, is boundless.  He is a timeless legend that will always be remembered.  If you are one of those that continue to judge him in death, then shame on you. I hope you and your children never experience what he had to go through.  And if you do, I hope people refuse you the benefit of the doubt, so you learn the hard way about sympathy and more importantly.... empathy.

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Best of everything

Some people get the best of everything.  Maybe they deserve it, maybe they don't... I'm not one to judge this.

However.

I think guys get a lot of breaks, especially with women.  Guys will choose women that take care of them, though they're not the best choice.  They'll choose what they feel comfortable with... that the girl will be submissive and take care of him, and cook, and clean... just be there when he needs it. For whatever he needs.

If most guys feel this way, what about women?  We need to be taken care of too.  How come they get to have the best of everything, when we can't just find a guy who will take care of us without feeling insecure about it?  I'm so annoyed.

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FU Greendam

http://shanghaiist.com/2009/07/01/break_out_the_champagne_green_dam_d_1.php

Hurrah! China has decided to delay indefinitely its plans to force manufacturers to include that Green Dam Youth Escort software on new computers, just hours before the policy was supposed to start. Their reasoning: "Some businesses pointed out the heavy amount of work, time pressures and lack of preparation." The news comes days after various international organizations petitioned the Party, begging for it to rethink the regulations, and PC makers have said that they can't make the deadline. The plan had also engendered threats of violence towards the company responsible for the Green Dam software and huge Chinese netizen backlash. Its indefinite postponement is not only a victory for free speech, but also a victory for anyone who doesn't really want malware on their brand new computer.



Protecting kids from pr0n my @ss.

As if we're that stupid to believe you, GFW.

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..... no access ......

It's been 3 months and there's still youtube.  It's driving me up the wall. 
And now there's also no blogger, hotmail, and a bunch of others.

Really, driving me nuts.

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There is nothing to see here

The thing, the noun, the adjective that shalt not be named that happened twenty years ago is once again celebrating its birthday very soon.

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久しぶり。。。。

Look'special Edition' by Halcali  
(download)

最近天気が悪くて気分も悪い。
ジェニーはたくさんストレスがある。。。問題いっぱいで、どこから直せばいいの?
ここで一人住んでいるから悲しいなときによく話してくれる人はいない。友達たくさんいるけど皆は自分の問題もある。BUSY。
でも一つやって気分をすぐよくなれる薬があるーーーHALCALIの歌を聞くことです!

これを聞くと何と無く辛い事忘れられる。

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One Big Construction Site

That is what this place is.   Everything has to be built, demolished, then built again.  In a few years, it's demolished.  The cycle repeats itself over and over and the dust is appalling. I wonder how much dust is in my lungs? Today wasn't a very good morning because I got woken up to the sound of a crane crashing into a building.  They're building the subway on the road next to my apartment, and there happens to be a building in their way. So, they made all the people move out, and then of course, started demolishing it. I'm going to have to move soon.  Maybe in 3 months or so..... I don't think I'd be so pissed if it was not for the fact that these problems are the #1 and #2 annoyances of my life here.  1) insane remodeling at unforgivable hours in the mornings and on weekends and 2) the dust and pollution that all this construction causes. 

I have lived here for a long time... almost a decade. A few years shy, but more than your 5-6 years already.  I think I've learned a lot here but I think I may have learned some better things elsewhere. You can't go back on your choices in life so the best thing you can do is make the most of it.  So, that's what I've committed myself to do.  Soon, I think I will be able to find what I've been looking for, at least I'll be on the path that I have been planning for so many years.  ugh... it took soooo long.......

I think what I really need is a refresher and a vacation.  Somethings getting to me these days. I think it's because I don't get enough sleep from all the construction outside.  Hopefully the housing agent will get back to me today on some properties I can look at.



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And here's to you... GFW

Ugh. It makes me so mad. How many of these sites will be blocked month after month?
Give me back all my blogs!!

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I don't like email posting...

So this is new to me. I've had so many blogs that have been blocked eventually by the power that is known as the GFW that I can't even keep track anymore. And now my blogger is blocked, and I can't access it. Thank you, GFW.... you POS.



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Yet another blog?

No Wai!


Just a link to my other blog.

www.iconfuzzeled.blogspot.com



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